Denise Day Spencer

April 23, 2010

“We love you”

Filed under: Devotional Life,Personal reflections — denisedayspencer @ 2:17 pm

There is no way I can ever offer enough thanks to all of the people who have prayed for us, encouraged us, cooked for us, supported us emotionally, supported us financially and just plain ol’ been there for us these past months. Today I want to simply share a couple of unexpected sources of that support in the past couple of weeks.

I returned to work just as a group of volunteers were arriving on the scene to help us in the print shop. Some of these ladies have worked with us once or twice a year for over a decade now. I was a little nervous. Had they heard about Michael’s death, or would they ask a cheery, “How’s your family?” They knew. And the minute they saw me they wrapped their arms around me. One, a widow herself, said, “You’ll be OK. And you’ll grow. I’ve grown so much in the Word.” Another reasoned, “You’re going to do great things. If God didn’t still have things for you to do, you wouldn’t be here.”

Another surprise came not from senior adult volunteers, but from little children. I received a package of homemade cards from our “staff kid” K-2 class. Their art teacher had encouraged them to make cards for me, and she asked them what they most wanted me to know. “We want Mrs. Spencer to know we love her,” they agreed. So here are a few excerpts from their written greetings: “We are thinking of you.” “God is with you.” “God bless you.” “God is with you every day. That is why I made this card for you.” Amid the scribbled renderings of hearts, balloons, flowers and stick-bodied humans, each and every card said, “I love you!” This was especially sweet and surprising since I don’t have any regular contact at all with these children. Two of them are brand new to our school and probably had no idea who they were even writing to as they offered their Crayola consolations. But they knew someone named “Mrs. Spencer” needed their love, and that was enough.

I didn’t realize until I began crying how much I needed to hear that — how much I needed to feel loved and to believe God still loved me. A friend once asked me if I had ever felt abandoned by God during Michael’s illness. I told her that on the whole I had not. But there were a few times…

Like the day we came out of the doctor’s office after being there for three hours in bitter cold weather. After I helped Michael into the car I dropped my folder in the parking lot and papers scattered all about. I stooped to grab for them before the frigid breeze could spirit them away. Such a simple thing, really. But there on my knees in the parking lot, the tree branches bare, the day dark and desolate, the wind cutting through my coat and gloves, I felt so alone, even from God.

When the bundle of cards arrived, that bleak day was far from my thoughts. But as the tears coursed down my face, I realized that those feelings had left their imprint on my heart. The love of the children for a near-stranger brought Christ’s love back to me.

So thank you Sadie, Sylvia, Teegan, James, Joshua, Trenton, Tess and Jami. I love you, too.

Advertisements

6 Comments »

  1. We do love you. It’s good to “hear” from you too. Still praying for you and your family…

    Comment by Ragamuffin — April 23, 2010 @ 2:23 pm | Reply

  2. I have never met you in person, Denise, just a few emails, but I love you too and hope that you will be comforted by memories of good times with Michael, by your family and friends and by your faith and prayers. Know that many people are keeping you in their prayers.

    I LOVE your “Crayola consolations.”

    Comment by JoanieD — April 23, 2010 @ 2:39 pm | Reply

  3. Been praying for you, Denise. You don’t know me but you are in my heart.

    Comment by wjcsydney — April 23, 2010 @ 8:04 pm | Reply

  4. I wish I were closer, so I could offer more tangible support. Please DO know that I continue to pray for you. It’s amazing what the simple words of a child (or several children, in this case) can do for you. Love you lots!

    Cynthia

    Comment by Cynthia Jones — April 24, 2010 @ 7:40 am | Reply

  5. God brings you to mind so often, and I always pray for you and your family. I know it must be weird, having complete strangers praying for you, but just know that Jesus is prompting people all over to stop what they are doing and offer up prayers for grace and comfort for you and your family.

    May He continue to shower you with love, comfort, grace, and all the strength you need to get through this time.

    Comment by Ouiz — April 25, 2010 @ 11:07 pm | Reply

  6. Go girl! Amen

    Comment by Judy Palmieri — April 26, 2010 @ 12:09 pm | Reply


RSS feed for comments on this post. TrackBack URI

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com.

%d bloggers like this: